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window

2011-08-22T23:16:00.000-07:00

hopefully this comin friday im gonna be father. hell yeah...gonna save the moment forever..love u daughter and wifey

INNOSPACE

2011-08-03T00:37:00.001-07:00

3 innospace already been officiated and by time for us to think? how to sustain it?

why should i care? did my part, but as a malaysian i do care...so GOVT...please provide me some money to run the show.

Dahaga dan Lapar

2011-08-02T23:59:00.000-07:00

Salam Ramadhan buat semua muslimin dan muslimat di Malaysia.

Lapar

The tigers gonna bounce back.

Dahaga

Rakyat masih dahagakan lagi kemenangan.

sinner

2010-01-03T10:36:00.000-08:00

happy new year..selamat tahun baru..

a new experienced of my life.

on the second day of new year, i experienced something that really meant to me. nothing can describe the feeling of dieing......

suddenly i felt like i cant breath at all, my heart beating faster and faster seems like theres no oxigen left in the air, trembling, cold feet, and suddenly i cried like someone dat i love just passed away. i heard a voice reminding me all of me sins. and sometimes i cant even listen to me self. my eyes started to glare all over the place, in my head i only think about me, me and me..i kept on talking to me self, is this the end of me life. slowly i saw my mum, and my dad trying their best comforting me on the bed. .what happening to me, i keep asking to ma self. my parents insist of taking me to the nearest hospital...NO i said, i just wanna lay down on the bed next to them and asking for forgiveness from them. my mum started to cry...

SARAH..i yelled her name out loud. my dad wanted to call her but i said NO..we wait and see..i started to think all of the sweetest memories when im with her. we planned to get married this year, hopefully ALLAH give me more time so that i could be a husband to her. i love her a loads..all of my heart even if i loathe her..she is the one for me.

after a few minutes i felt better. i called her just checking on her..asking her for a forgiveness if i did anything wrong to her. and she said dont worry sayang everything will be alright..past few minutes after i hung up the phone, the ATTACK started to attack me again..i felt so thirsty this time, felt like butterfly inside my stomach..restless, painless, speechless..recite quran maybe for the last time, i prayed for forgiveness, YA ALLAH im a sinner, could you give me a chance so that i could be ready next time...i remembered reading somewhere if u felt all of the above it mean you are dying..

after almost 2 hours of struggling, i started to feel better. but my body felt so tired..maybe i need a rest. im afraid if i close my eyes i wouldnt open the next time.. SARAH used to remind me of the doa tidur( reciting that you do before you sleep), few seconds after that i slept.

alhamdullilah im still here, and getting better and better.but one thing for sure this experience i will never forget for the rest of my life.

i love allah, my family and my future wife sarah amran...

BN

2009-10-11T23:18:00.000-07:00

Tan Sri Isa Samad won seat ADUN Batang Pinang. From my point of view, Tan Sri is a good leader with a bad reputation. but people now days do not care who is he its just the matter of BN. PAS does not relevant anymore, same goes to PKR and DAP. They do not have any reason on why they joined Pakatan Rakyat. the main reason behind all of this just because they want BN keep on loosing.

for me PKR will never be my Govt.

1Malaysia is simple and everyone willing to accept that.

5kg

2009-10-09T00:18:00.000-07:00

biggest looser finale'

i cant imagine how that guy managed to loose half of his body weight and turned to be a HUNK. wohooo..if he can do that im sure i can.

i want to loose weight!!i cant stand it anymore. i felt so heavy whenever i walk. felt like this belly distracted others people view.

only GOD

2009-09-17T19:08:00.001-07:00

sabtu 9/10/10 : somewhere only we know

ab: b, jom kahwin.

b: .....

ab: asal awak tak nak jawab haaaaaaa

b:...hmmm

ab: b jom ah kawin.....jom ah b...tak tahan ni...awak tgk sini, (sambil memegang pipi b)..ab ab dah tua ok..ab nak kahwin..awak nak tak nak besok kena kahwin gak

b: hmmmmm

ab: bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb.......jom ahhh kahwin(melutut merayu.)

b: sambil berfikir?........................

PERSOALAN NYA:

apakah yang akan dijawab oleh b kepada ab? masih adakah cinta antara mereka berdua? sejauh mana kisah cinta mereka?

..........

saksikan lah pada

10.10.10..

raya

2009-09-17T17:44:00.000-07:00

im bored in the office

luckily i blogspot still not forbidden in the office network. i can count with my barely fingers number of cars in the parking lot.

what is the purpose of me coming to the office today?what is the purpose of me spending hours infront of the pc doing nothing? i should spent my day on my bed playing games.

so on sunday kita sambut hari raya. after three years sambut raya kat luar negara, at last dapat gak aku celebrate makan lemang, ketupat and rendang, plus sambal tumis ikan bilis bersulam kan pulut kuning. sedap wey.for instance i think, balik PILAH tak this year?

somebody call my mum mum mum mum

ok selamat hari raya

2009-06-06T03:01:00.000-07:00

feel tiny and almost disappear

what?
where?
who?
why?
what ever

speak out loud to everyone....

experience | helpless |

2009-05-18T07:53:00.000-07:00

i just cant deny it that some people doesnt know the meaning of patient. they only want to know the end result now by not knowing the best that might get in the process of getting it. it might take some times. you cant simply get the end result just like blinking your eyes and then everything gonna turn like what you want. patient, experiencing, work hard and work smart are the process for success.

i know people might think with my qualification i should be one of the high income earner. i should become a manager or senior exect in a company. not a consultant for a politician who pay you a small amount of money for your salary. i agreed that most of my friends are in the category of high income earner, but are they happy with their job, which they have to spent 8 hours in the office and spent most of their time infront of the computer. pressure from the top level of management, pressure with the current economy. if they pay you for example 4k every single month but you not enjoying your job, do you think it can satisfied you.

for me, all of my colleague trust in me. they know that i can be a good marketer consultant for the company. even DNA also trust on my decision making. im not saying that im good, but i love to meet people, i love to travel, i love to meet new people and i know i can work together with any type of peoples. we shared our knowledge, experienced and try to get the best result together for everyone.

so stop asking me what are the benefits if i continuously working for them. one big simple reason. two big projects are in my hand hopefully it will run smoothly and its me, yes im the person who responsible for it. no matter what, im goin to finish the job that been given by THE GOVERNMENT. if its not me, who else going to help those people who crying for help from me for the past two weeks. IM A MALAY, so its my job to help those helpless MALAYS.

if you in the system, you will know EVERYTHING.

2009-04-13T14:48:00.000-07:00

pagi petang aku makan

life as a student lagi best. tak payah nak pikir pasal duit, tak yah nak pikir pasal kerje, tak yah pikir pasal nak cari kerje. how i miss life as a student.

ni dah habis blajar, kerje pon tara. apa gua nak bikin pon gua tk tau. sangap dah tahap dewa dah ni. hari hari buat benda sama. kemas rumah, kemas bilik, kemas almari, kemas luar rumah, kemas diri. sangap wey. pergi sana pergi sini, buang masa sana sini, still gak aku sangap.

benda kat malaysia pon dah makin lama makin mahal. semua barang pon dah naik. takde apa yang turun kecuali dollah badawi jer ah dah turun takhta. naik plak mamat st.john ni plak yang jadi ketua.ntah lah aku pon tk tau.

duit dah takder. duit emergency pon tinggal baper jer sangat. skarang dah tgh bulan april, kerje pon tak pat lagi. mak bapak aku dah takder duit. tinggal adik aku jer ah yang kerje yang boleh kasik skit duit. dah macam kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang.

kawan kawan semua dah kahwin. yang dapat anak pon dah ada. aku ni bila lagi. haihh..lek lek tak leh pikir lagi wey, duit pon tara. nak bagi anak bini aku makan apa. makan pasir. hutang mak bapak aku pon aku tak bayar lagi. apa saja nak jadi ngan aku ni. bila lah aku boleh jadi org yang berguna utk kluarga.

kawan kawan aku yang banyak duit plak, tak tau nak pakai duit utk apa. bazir sana sini, tapi apa nak buat, duit dorang biar kan lah. bukan susah kan aku pon. nak beli itu lah beli inilah, nak pergi sna lah , pergi sinilah. murah plak rezeki dorang tu. rezeki aku ni asyik mahal jer. dari dulu sampai sekarang, bab nak cari kerje halal jer mesti susah..kalo bab kerje haram tu senang jer aku boleh dapat. ni yang aku lemah ni.

zaman sekarang ni kalau ade duit, jimat jimat ah. masuk asb ker, masuk simpanan ker kasik dia beranak. simpan simpan ah duit tu. lain lah kalo ko tu ahli keparat yang keep on makan duit org lain or kau ni artis boleh lah ko membazir

. jadi artis paling senang. buat show sana sini, melalak sana sini, belakon sana sini terus dapat duit banyak. aku nak daftar diri jadi pelakon ah.mana ah tau aku ni ada bakat. hahaha..konfem bapak aku marah aku later on.

tapi takper..takder duit pon perut aku tetap besar dan senang macam org yang banyak duit. yelah. kalo dah pagi makan, tgh hari makan, petang makan, malam makan, tgh malam makan..
kira nyer, org yang tak berduit ah perut dorang paling buncit. sebab dorang dah tak leh nak buat apa lagi. nak jalan tak leh, nak shopping tak leh, nak hidup mewah tak leh..end up beli makanan and makan sampai kenyang. tak percaya tengok lah discovery channel, negara susah, budak budak kecik dia semua nyer buncit buncit....

ash..hilang dalam engkau

2009-03-27T03:31:00.000-07:00

lying wide awake under strange skies
Wanting to call you, but it is late at night
And youre far away, but you are always on my mind

I feel like Im on fire, nothing I can do
Im troubled with doubt, though I know it is not true

And its times like these when I am dying to speak to you
Dying to get through, Im dying to speak to you
Dying to get through, Im dying to speak to you.

Staring at the wall, I sink inside
I think about it all, I get caught up in my life
I cant think straight, because its tearing up my mind

I feel like Im on fire, nothing I can do
Im troubled with doubt, though I know it is not true

And its times like these when I am dying to speak to you
Dying to get through, dying to get through

The more that I think how I need you
The more that I think, the more it seems true
And now it means more that I ever meant it to
Ever meant it to

Lying wide awake under strange skies
Wanting to call you, but it is late at night
And youre far away, but you are always on my mind

You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind

rapid KL

2009-03-26T03:58:00.000-07:00

i decided to take a bus tour in KL.

me end up lost out of nowhere. the bus system in KL getting better but its a new experienced for me. most the busses have a smooth route system between places in kuala lumpur. meaning its easy for you to travel around. but the shittiest part for me was, i didnt know the numbers and also the route.

instead of going back home, i took a wrong number and end up at kl sentral..what the hack.luckily you only have to pay RM 2 for the whole journey. why am i lost in my own city a bit shame of me self. the air conditioner in the busses were great. full blast!!!

and the worst part, too many foreigners in the bus. felt like im part of them.

2009-03-23T00:44:00.000-07:00

im bored to death. havent found a job yet. staring at this four walls again and again in my small tiny lovely room. been thinking too much lately like how am i goin to survive in this country without doing nothing. been to two interviews so far but still havent heard from them. maybe im too demanding when it comes to salary wise.

thinking of going to OASIS concert in SINGAPORE next week, but if i go i wouldnt have enuff money to keep on living.. where can i get some ringgit malaysia..at least when im in manchester i still can work with NING. .

money money money...no money cant happy..no money no marry..no money no glory.

UNITED is going down, going down, going down..ive been listening to that chant for two weeks and i hate it. feel like kicking someone ass..

in FERGIE we believe..UNITED IS THE TEAM FOR ME..UNITED TILL I DIE

2009-03-17T09:36:00.000-07:00

oo gosh..i miss NING.must be kidding. i miss the peoples there, miss the foods, not really actually but the ambiance. i am pleasant to be back here in my country, but im bored doing nothing here, everyone seems busy with their own things.except azmo who still searching and sorting his life up. i even told ma mum today that im bored and im thinking of going back to manchester if i still havent got a job.

suddenly i received a phone call from FAMACO..yeah tomorrow gonna be my second interview. hopefully i do well. i think i can, but dont be too confident.

as soon as i get a job, next thing is register myself with the chartered institution of marketing. i already checked things up and i found out that i only have to take two exams and a year of probationary then ill get my chartered.CIMA..wohooo another title.

i am so excited and i cant wait for tomorrow.. started dreaming of buying my own house.HAHAHA..

BCK

2009-03-02T07:08:00.000-08:00

back to the real world. safely reached home. arrived in KLIA it feel so awkward. i still couldnt believe that im back for good. the same old peeps picked me up at the airport. straight to hartamas and had a malaysian delight cuisine..but my heart keep on thinking about sarah. i started to miss her minute by minute. i cant imagine how life gonna be without her by my side.

kl. again loads of changes, more new highway, more cars and more people. the ha tic, the weather and noises, shoot man im gonna stuck back in the reality world.

and yet by tomorrow i need to submit my resume' to the peoples..

oo ...perhentian island and phuket im coming....im so gonna be tanned.

YES YOU

2009-01-31T21:39:00.000-08:00

S.A.R.A.H.

thank you for walking together with me. please walk with me till the end of the road. NOKTAH..

space

2009-01-24T19:53:00.000-08:00

ooo what u do on saturday night...

i miss football, i miss man utd. its been a while i havent been to the stadium. used to be part of the team. the winning team. but since i joined ning team, i have to sacrifice my footy for the restaurant. my friends, my ex supervisor, my red cafe team keep on messaging me asking when am i coming back to the red cafe...i just ignored those text cuz to be honest i didnt know what should i tell them. they said, there gonna be a road trip next week for the red caf staff, but im not been invited cuz ive been missing so many matches. i miss playing footie. arghh shittie shait..

my day come and go just like that. but everything gonna be alright once i arrived in MALAYSIA. hopefully

drama KING

2009-01-23T03:20:00.000-08:00

drama

im a drama king. what made me such a drama boy, cuz i love watching movies, drama, episode series preferably all those from my fellow asian countries. indo, korean, jap, and even malaysian. but im a bit choosy when it comes to malaysian movies or drama. i hate the reality of watching rosyam noor, d boy, or fared kamil, fasha sanda and the gang in the film nor dramas.there were lame. stereotype. i would prefer something that are more adventurous and movies that Malaysians haven't explore yet. astro did make some of my quality of standard movies compare to the rest. if drama, most of the cerekarama slot from tv3 are still the best. 8tv also not bad.

how on earth i still manage to watch all of these dramas. thank you to flatmate, fared. he is the taiko of download. anything that you wanna watch from a to z he would never disappointed you.

the new comer in malaysia that i really adore.. scha al yahya...new comer,all the way from northern part of malaysia KEDAH. brilliant, natural and coolness.. the mystic of cheryl samad, the elegant of vanida imran, and not forgotten sharifah amani...you woman are superb...

RAA FOR MALAYSIA

2009-01-11T21:24:00.000-08:00

still a long long way to go. the beginning of the end. open a new chapter of my life in my own country. to be honest i cant wait till the moment i step into the plane and say goodbye to the place that i call my world. back to reality, and i have to start it all over again.

and this time its gonna be for real. i know what i want, i know my priorities, set my goals and gear up full throttle to the max..for me, for my family and for my parents. i know it.

for you AB AB, all the moment when we were together im so gonna cherish it in my small brain and waiting patiently for you to comeback and we can starts to planning for our big day.the big day when you and me gonna be together forever. SAH!!

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today

i just realised that my stomach getting bigger day by day. damn man, its a bit shame cuz i used, yes used to have six pack and never be ashamed of taking my clothes off. i watched the youtube,and searching for kiss bown.. oo no wonder AB AB felt so aroused when that guy took off his shirt. damn man six pack. however he doesn't have the package...not handsome, bald black guy trying to be cool like me. SO, when i look into the mirror, my other half told me that i got the package..i decided to join my own fitness first and start doin the 'abdomen' exercise. CIK ARA, u give me 6 months, and later when i pick u up at the airport u gonna see me wearing white tight singlet with a six pack on my body..believe me...then u gonna melt seeing my new body..hahha.and this time also its for real.

last few days.

AB AB and me had a great great time together. a bit of me and a bit of her, here and there. we were in our own world together. i cooked for her, she cooked for me..how sweet. yes my AB AB, she is one of a kind. i cant never describe her in one word. to many to tell. been to relationship so many times, with so many girls and i still until today i cant compare AB AB with anyone else. actually i never compared her to anyone tho. what type of a girl she is.. wordless. a bit of everything. AB AB you are the best that i ever had. so get ready k, once i got the job, have the money, u get ready jer lah..

future

what i want to be..yes i want to be the next next MALAYSIA PRIME MINISTER. maybe its too late for me, but that is what i want to be since i was a small kid. politic is in my blood and also in my family. i want to be a leader. born to be a leader. always..

for a start, i choose to be a lecturer, gain experience and knowledge, become somebody, be a wise man, then get involved in politics. a good speaker has to be wise, cool, popular, confident and the most important thing..THE BRAIN.

i love my country, i love my peoples, i love my self and my family, and i love my religion and my race. 'MELAYU TAK AKAN HILANG DI DUNIA' quoted by HANG TUAH.

......

2008-12-23T05:51:00.000-08:00

current situation make me feel like blogging again. i feel like goin to a place where no ones there.all the pressure make me feel like jumping from the highest building in town and dissappear in a sudden. oo gosh why cant i be four people at the same time.

leg bol

2008-11-20T20:00:00.000-08:00

ayres lads cant wait for the action.

we just got our new team jersey like 5 mins ago and its green. black bal like what dali said. mojo or vibe gonna be different this time..we think that we can win this saturday. hopefully.

38 and 42nd street roks tonight. now i cant feel my legs, and my feet hurts.

mandi and then go to bed. another long day tomorrow, but for sure i cant wait this saturday cuz its gonna be our first year anniversary together, and the place that im goin was the place i met her for the first time.

with the black magic that u have hopefully nothing bad happen to me and play safe.

old boys..

2008-11-02T21:47:00.000-08:00

it will end sooner or later. met the lads from liverpool.

the big boys played loudly song again. spending more and more times wth the lads made me feel younger day by day. at last we met again. wicked. mr vacuum seems happy with his new boys. mr blur hunting for shuttle cock foods. mr barai still the same old barai looking for FONG. and me, enjoyed all the moment.

i still cant believe that nik and pisgus are here in uk. they turned ma room upside down and somehow i like it. amazing. its happening..niks room used to be our destination in malaysia, but in uk everyone gathered at 62 ayres. in ma sexy room.

we jammed all night long...end up with a most depressing song. oo man the emo guys are back. so UK u better watch out.. attention to all bands..the emergence of sji boys will be in your town soon...

PS : so what if im happy?

I LOVE MCR

2008-10-09T19:23:00.000-07:00

MANCHESTER, i might leaving you soon. im so gonna miss this place. this is my city. the city that keep me on and on day by day.

thankyou manchester

i love MCR

sept

2008-09-01T19:27:00.000-07:00

every september...every september..

september 2006 doom day for me
september 2007 started to move on
september 2008 im being stupid...

september supposed to be one of the best month because at the end of it is my sayang birthday. come on man, please dont be such an asshole anymore. she loves you more than anyone used to love you. she care bout you. she even take a good care of yourself more than she care bout herself. all the things she done were just to make sure that you can keep on smiling and laughing like the way u always do.. she always pray for you. she even love your family. and guess what, even your family love her. stop being a kid. stop pointing your fingers to her when something aint satisfied you. talk to her. calm her down. she s so gonna be a women in your life. so treat her like an angel. because she s the only one who will on continue supporting you no matter what.

ask yourself...DO you deserve to be with her?u lucky poor thing

YES I DO!!!!!!

first ramadhan

2008-09-01T08:43:00.000-07:00

"YA ALLAH KAU JAUH KAN LAH ANASIR ANASIR JAHAT DARI DIRINYA"

maybe its me!!!!!!!

fasting

2008-08-31T17:55:00.000-07:00

the most thing that i couldnt resist during fasting month is plucking my nose during the day. i love to do it. its kind a habit for me that i couldnt stop. the feeling of plucking, plunging or digging is indescribable.some people might think its a bit disgrace full and rude less to do it in public but for me everyone haf the rite do so. same goes to me. you guys maybe do it in the toilet, at home or somewhere theres nobody around you. but me, i just do it when i feel like too. how are u going to stop the itchiness in your nose. once you clear all the " dust" in your nose, than you can breathe easily.and this help me a lot. that is why me got no problems of breathing...so far..

there are so many way to clearing the dust in your nose..by scratching your nose hardly so that it could get out it self. or maybe you can just try your luck by blowing it out.but ive chosen my way.

plucking it out slowly and enjoying the arts..

selamat berpuasa.

my love

2008-08-20T19:17:00.000-07:00

she s here. but unfortunately i haf no time for her. she returned to manchester last two days, but sometimes i feel like she s still in malaysia.i just cant believe that shes back in town. me busy with my work and i left her alone with her crazy old housemate. i wish i could save her from the chaotic. the feeling way too different than before. oo my god. i do miss her...i miss her alot.

i wish i could be next to her every single day but i cant. somehow i can feel the way she felt.

alrite, tomorrow gonna be another busy day for me. but for sure im so gonna spend my few extra times before i start my hell day in the restaurant.

i did plan a short trip to scotland this weekend with her. hopefully everything gonna run smoothly as i planned.

i love u sarah.

gossip girl

2008-08-12T21:06:00.000-07:00

meeting and training day for new staff in red cafe' end up with chatting and gossiping bout each others.... this sunday gonna be our first match after 3 months break...see ya guys there!!

someone asked me : does your girlfriend feel kind a hot wearing that hijab?

i answered : without the hijab she still gonna feel hot

person who asked : ooo really, dont tell me that she think that shes hot!!

i replied : ooo no...she will always feel hot cuz shes with me..cuz, im HOT!!

same person : what ever RAF!!!!

...

some people couldnt imagine how mr RAF.. kind a naughty, grumpy, emotional, and mentally disorder guy could end up with an innocent, good looking, sweet, and religious girl like her..

for me, i thank god for everything, i deserve her cuz i know that im the best..

save the best for the last...

KK

2008-08-06T20:15:00.000-07:00

anu bah...

disebab kan aku nak sambung ijazah aku terpaksa pergi ke sabah negeri di bawah bayu. macam macam benda baru aku blajar. kota kinabalu mmg ah tak sama cam mana kat kuala lumpur. semua benda lain. dari segi bahasa, pakaian, bentuk muka bumi, dan segalanya. tho masih lagi kat dalam malaysia tapi sekeliling dia mmg tak cam dalam malaysia.

yang paling best kat sabah..haha..aku jer lelaki yang ader dalam class tu. mula mula adalah 3 org lelaki, second semester jer terus tinggal aku sorang..apa lagi aku jer ah yang jadi hero kat dalam class tu. hahah..the most wanted man.

life kat sabah mmg best. aman damai and tak banyak masalah. mmg best. mana tak, rumah tepi laut wey, class tepi laut, tempat makan tepi laut. kalo lah satu hari nanti aku bleh bermaustatin kat sana mmg ah best.

kuala menggatal,kat situ ah aku tinggal selama 2 tahun setengah. kena sangat ngan perangai aku yang gatal..mmg just nice ah ngan penampilan aku..ahahhaa...terbaik.so satu hari nanti kalo aku dah kaya, aku nak ajak si dia pindah ke sabah pastu lepak and buat rumah kat bawah gunung kinabalu..ohoooo...terbaik....

pelajaran pertama utk penggunaan BAH..

bah boleh digunakan sama ada di awal percakapan, di tengah tengah atau pon di akhir...so kalo org yang tak tau nak guna bah tu harap harap jgn main tabur jer bah kat semua ayat. mmg ah buruk gile bunyi nyer....

contoh ayat : bah, marilah!!!
boleh BAH apis...!!!
jangan BAH......

U N I

2008-08-05T19:47:00.000-07:00

cinta hati no 2...

aku kasik nama ko BORAT..dalam banyak banyak nama dorang kasik nama aku borat, maksud panjang bontot berat..aku pon tak tau ah asal bontot aku berat ker, ko ader timbang ker.tapi takder hal ah budak baru ah kan.ikut jer ah kata senior. borat diberi oleh cik IKAN..asal nama dia ikan pon aku tak tau, muka cam jawa ader ah, takde muka ikan langsung.

drama di uitm melaka mmg ah sangat muhibah. mcm mcm bangsa ader tho kat itm mana ader bangsa lain. tapi perangai semua bangsa ader. termasuk ah aku. yang lembik ader, yang perasan kuat ade, yang perasan hensem ader, semua ader ah. kalo budak badge aku yang lembik semua nyer kena ikat kat pokok getah masa tgh malam, pastu semua yang rasa nak sepak budak pondan aka bapok dipersila kan ah..aku jer tak lempang dorang..kesian plak aku rasa ngan dorang ni..ader yang jahat siap letak kerengga lagi kat badan mamat tu. sebab aku jer tak pergi, tu yang semua bapok sayang aku..habis ah satu itm tau yang aku sorang jer tak anti bapok..lantak p dorang ah. janji bapok ni tak kaco aku sudah..alih alih sebab kan tamparan jantan jantan blok aku tu ah yang buat si bapok ni dah kahwin and dah ader anak dah..hahah..kalo tak dulu, mak aiiii siap ader beg makeup tuuuu...hahhaha

perangai aku tetap gak ah sama cam zaman zaman budak dulu..bab mandi pagi mmg ah malas..lagi lagi class pagi. shower kat blok budak laki ni tak pernah nyer yang elok..semua bermasalah. bukan tu jer, pintu pon takder tombol dan pengunci..so selalu nyer kalo nak mandi, kena ah buat style anjing, satu kaki tahan pintu satu kaki tahan badan ah nak berdiri..tak ke susah kalo camtu..kalo tak, konfem terbukak ah pintu tu..memula dulu aku mandi cam tu gak ah...tapi bila dah lama lama aku dah tak leh tahan sabar..yer ah kan...3 tahun ah kan aku nak kena duk situ..takkan nak mandi ala gaya camtu jer selamanyer..tak ker buat tebiat nama nyer..so aku jer ah mandi tak tahan pintu..kengkadang tu, ader jer org masuk tandas alih alih tgh gosok gigi depan cermin dorang nampak aku tgh mandi bogel...hahhahah..saper suruh ko tgk..tgk cermin tgk gigi dah ah...so bontot aku dah jadi tatapan umum ah gak..

gaya rambut aku zaman uni dah takder jambul dah..main sepah jer..mula aku umur 18 tahun, aku tak pernah pakai sikat rambut.sampai la ni ah juge aku tak sikat rambut. tarik sana tarik sini jer..sampai ader satu masa dalam dewan kuliah, disebab kan aku masuk lambat, lecturer tu panggil aku berdiri kat depan nak jadi kan aku contoh utk semua..bayang kan ader 6 class diploma dalam dewan kuliah tu dan semua nya satu kampus, aku dijadikan contoh..aku ingat lagi dia cakap, ini lah contoh budak lelaki zaman sekarang, pergi blajar tak kemas langsung,muka cam org bangun tido..apa ker bangang nyer lect tu ..dah mmg aku baru bangun tido, pastu g class..nama pon class pagi..takkan muka baru nak tido plak kan...

disebab kan dia, aku terus tukar penampilan aku..sebab dia nak buat aku jadi contoh gak ah utk minggu depan nyer class..dan aku pon ubah ah skit..kemas ah skit..minggu depan aku berubah..terus menjadi igauan satu uitm melaka..dah dorang nampak kekacakan aku..cam ner aku buat..

aku dulu tokey rokok..

kalo nak isap rokok kat blok lelaki.ko kena ader lesen. harga lesen RM 10 utk satu batang, tapi lesen ni boleh pakai seumur hidup ko kat blok ah..kalo ko tak amik lesen ko tak leh isap rokok kat blok..kira nyer, saper sajer budak yang nak isap rokok kena lah amik lesen kat aku..HAHHAA...mmg aku kaya. rokok dijual dengan harga rm 1 utk 3 batang..kira ok ah tu dulu..kalo nak murah dorang kena beli sendiri ah..tapi kalo ko budak baru masuk dah pandai bawak kotak rokok sendiri, and tak kantoi ngan aku bagus ah..hahha..aku mmg zalim..

yang pelik dorang semua sayang aku..uhuuuu....

soalan nyer...aku mengikuti kursus apa di UITM melaka...

SCHOOL

2008-08-04T18:55:00.000-07:00

cinta hati no 1..

bangun pagi gosok gigi..
kalau dulu mak aku suruh aku gosok gigi before aku pergi sekolah. aku punyer lah malas nak gosok gigi. bukan apa malas nak bukak mata aku nak carik ubat gigi and berus gigi..sebab dulu, aku mandi dalam bilik mandi mak bapak aku DAN bilik mandi mak bapak aku selalu jer takder lampu..dorang cakap baru ah seksi..ALASAN... bilik mandi aku tersumbat dari aku lahir lagi. at last masa umur aku mencecah 21 baru mak ngan bapak aku nak betul kan bilik mandi aku. ko kira jer ah, baper tahun aku hidup aku share bilik mandi ngan mak and bapak aku. so pagi pagi dah bangun nak kena g skolah. skolah kalo dekat takper. ni jauh sial. kat tgh tgh ibukota. kalo lambat jer konfem ko duduk ah dalam jem asap ibukota. pukul 6 pagi jer mak aku dah jerit kan aku suruh bangun. aku akan amik 10 minit utk keluar dari selimut, dua minit depan tangga sementara nak amik tuala yang tengah bersidai. pastu 6 minit dalam bilik air,pandang air. disebab kan mak bapak aku ni antara ibu bapa yang konservertif, dorang didik aku untuk mandi air sejuk pagi pagi. dorang kata kalo mandi air sejuk lagi tambah segar. aku rasa itu semua alasan jer dorang tak nak beli heather air panas. ..chet..sampai la ni ah..tak pernah ah pakai heather air panas kat umah tu..

so lepas 6 minit termenung, masa utk berak plak..time ni best. aku mesti make sure aku gosok gigi sambil berak. tak tau ah sebab apa, cam dah jadi habit ah kan.rasa nyaman jer, so senang ah skit nak kluar. senang tak senang, at least aku amik masa gak ah dalam 1 minit lebih utk selesai kan bil tertunggak..oo tu mmg dah jadi tabiat aku, tak suka amik masa lama utk berbuang..nanti krem jubok...pastu rasa balik air takungan..mak aiii..sejukbai...nak tak nak, aku amik air satu gayung penuh, pastu aku curah atas kepala aku, rambut aku dan muka..badan tak kena..sebab apa..sejuk weyyyy...

so basically, aku mandi tak kena badan ah..paling paling pon kena kat leher jer, sebab mak aku bising dia cakap kalo baju skolah ko kuning kat leher tu aku tak nak basuh..dia cakap..so utk memastikan aku tak kena basuh baju skolah tu, and memudah kan kerje mak aku, aku make sure ah bahagian leher tu aku sabun ngan cermat...lepas selesai jer buat semua benda tu ..aku pakai ubat ketiak..

ubat ketiak..aku pon tak tau apa ah kebaikan ubat ketiak, tapi biasa ah..dah semua kengkawan kat skolah pakai aku pon pakai ah..baru ah up to date.pastu masuk bilik aku..aku gantung cermin baik nyer..depan cermin meja solek aku..konfem aku akan tepekkan sebanyak yang boleh CODE10 warna biru kat atas rambut aku so that aku boleh buat jambul yang terbaik nyer..rambut disikat rapi, yang depan tu kasi keras skit so that tak jatuh bila kena tiup angin...habis sikat rambut baru aku pakai tie and baju skolah..so aku pon dah siap.

aku turun bawah, makan sarapan : fav aku nescafe cicah roti jer dulu..sebab aku tau aku nak sampai skolah aku nak beli nasi lemak 50 sen kat kantin ngan air susu cokelat kotak..

pin pon!!

soalan nyer..pukul berapa aku sampai skolah and berapa lama aku nak siap kan diri aku utk pergi ke sekolah..

EPL

2008-08-03T13:16:00.000-07:00

sakit dooo badan aku main bola..tapi takper at least aku score banyak and most of the goal mmg lah cantik..

on wednesday ader date ngan awek no 1. lama dah tak jumper dorang, lama dah aku tak bau manusia manusia mabuk minum budweiser, lautan merah, padang yang hijau dan juge aweks aweks aku. salah sorang dari aweks aku yang ramai tu tak sedar diri. sebok nak carik bf baru..pergi ah..ko ingat aku kisah ker dia nak g sana. pergi lah..aku tak hingin pon ko duk kat sini..perasan bagus, tanpa ko pon aku boleh bahgia bersama aweks aweks aku yang lain ok.

sayang nyer aku tak pat nak bawak si dia g tgk aweks aweks aku. kan best kalo aweks aweks aku ni nak date masa 18 haribulan ke atas. tapi takper lah yer sayang, nanti one day ab bawak ah juge awak ke sana ok.

bini lama kat malaysia aku dah lama tak update dah..last sekali yang aku tau dorang kalah piala FA. takder hal ah..

what ever it is, lagi dua minggu aweks aweks aku start perform, and paling best si dia pon balik ke sini..uhuuu...seronok nyer hati ini..

tak sabar rasanyer..

2008-07-29T21:01:00.000-07:00

i love august. august is the month of love. the first movie we watched together august rush. malaysia independence day end of august. middle august shes here. so i love august.

onwards from august, bahasa malaysia will be the first language for me new post.

aku benci penjajah...

august rush

2008-07-24T18:43:00.000-07:00

here comes the sun..lalala...

chicks galore..you can see chicks all over city today especially Piccadilly. everyone with their mini skirts, tubes even bikinis.

i think i need a rest or a vacation. while waiting for her, let me sleep as long as i could and please do wake me up when middle sept comes not sept..

ok august rush..how bout Aberdeen or portugal for a short trip..

peace

2008-07-23T21:13:00.000-07:00

might carried up away. the sun rise from the tip corner of my window. my national flag waving high in the room. independence day just around the corner. but we still been corrupted by the naughty scumbag politicians. my country startin to collapse slowy day by day thats for sure. person A telling bad things bout person B, person B had an affair with person D while person C laughing at A, B and D. so now im not so sure about the definition of independent.

one of the reason why sometimes i feel like buyin a shot gun, a massive bomb that could explode the whole Parliament and a gun with unlimited bullets, so its gonna be easy for me to kill those bastards that ruin my country for the sake of their own fooking belly.

im not a rebel scum, im just a normal guy that would love to change the whole things back to what we used to be. why cant ABC and D live happily ever after. .it consists of four alphabets..if u sum up all together

A+B+C+D = its actually equivalent to LOVE..so be it..

dumb ass

KeranaMu Malaysia - Patriotik

PONEK

2008-07-19T20:11:00.000-07:00

at last i have the chance to rest after two weeks of hard work. 3 days off, and i might travel down south to london on monday. its been a while i havent meet my relatives there. anyhow it depends on my mood.

tomorrow lunch with NING team. brainstorming on what should we do on promoting our restaurant to the crowds. we made such a good job. target been achieved. bosses were happy. total sales for two weeks GBP 13000. me myself collect GBP 340 tips for the past two weeks. how i wish i can get all the tips, but because we work as a team we have to share with all the staff. its ok..sharing is caring tho.

football calling. friendly match with BRAZIL team tomorrow. its gonna be the malaysianS vs PROHIBITION bar tender.( the brazillians). hope i can perform tomorrow. its been a while i havent play and kick a ball.

as for NING im starting to love me jobs, the owners start to put trust on me and im so happy for that. i will put all my afford to do the best for you bosses. im so gonna make sure that NING gonna be one of the well known restaurant for south east asian cuisine in manchester.

and to you my love, how bz i am i never stop missing u. you are the one that made me stronger day by day. your support and your courage. i heart you my dear. and to be honest i just cant wait for you. im counting days by days and hoping one day when i wake up from my dream u r in front of me and smiling towards me and telling me im back sayang...

pressure of happiness

2008-07-11T00:43:00.000-07:00

............

azizah.a@hotmail.com: bye sayang I miss you and mak rindu anak mak sorang ni
azizah.a@hotmail.com: now ada adik je
me: me too
azizah.a@hotmail.com: lastly kalau ada problem do call mak ok
azizah.a@hotmail.com: ta da duit pun beri tahu just email or msn
me : naa its ok
me: just keep ur money k
me: jgn membazir sangat
azizah.a@hotmail.com: ok
me: insyallah ader rezeki skit apis hantar duit k
me: assalamualaikum
azizah.a@hotmail.com: nak balik beri tahu
me: daaa peluk cium apis kat mak..
me: i will
azizah.a@hotmail.com: bye dear and adik selau kata abang ta nakbeli adik jersey ke
me: insyallah
azizah.a@hotmail.com: nanti mak beri tahu mesti dia suka
azizah.a@hotmail.com: kenapa abang ta kirim sama Sarah
azizah.a@hotmail.com: dia adik abang sorang je
me: sebab masa tu apis cuma ader 20 poound jer utk hidup
me: and apis takder duit masa tu mak
me: and still berhutang ngan org
me: kalo ader duit apis dah beli dah mak..
azizah.a@hotmail.com: ta palah dia faham dia pun risau abangnya dia kata ta da duit abang balik lah
me: ok la mak ...apis tido ah dulu
me: kim salam apak and adik
azizah.a@hotmail.com: ok bye dear

my mum chatted with me this morning..as usuall she kind a worried bout me. but the main reason was just wanna let me know, when can i start paying my debt. she keep on mentioning bout my dad who doesnt have work anymore.retired old man , and he already spent a huge amount of his saving accounts for me and for my studies...

mortgaged our house and get some extra money from the bank...and now they hoping that with my masters degree i could get a better job with big salary...but im jobless...how am i going to pay their debt.

now im kind a worried....

im so gonna postponed my things first.its time for me to sacrifice my self. still a long long way to go..dun worry ill sort all the things out..

deep inside me, i miss my mum and my dad...i had a bad bad dream lately..hopefully nothing gonna happened to both of them..ya allah kau selamat kan lah ibu bapa ku..

yang benar..anak yang bingung.

not living in denial

2008-07-06T20:35:00.000-07:00

there is a certain way men should stare to a women he loves . like a boy on his birthday. treat her as she was the gift.that he waited so long to open and he cant wait to see what inside.

i have no doubt of waiting. waiting for her to be mine. it might take two, three years or maybe longer than that. sooner or later she will be mine. ill be the king of her heart forever. she made me feel like the way i wanted too. ,

a men like me is so sensitive. maybe the error of gender went wrong somewhere or maybe i haf a heart of women.in other view maybe im kind a wild party animal like a lion tho,still she managed to tame me like a kitten.

should i give reason why do i love her so much?

distance might separate us at the moment. how i miss all the thing about her while she were by myside. but my heart is with you that is why i still can feel ur breath. i still can hear your voice whispering on both ears. telling me that im your precious.

a girl like sarah doesnt come everyday in your life. thank GOD and how lucky i am. dont say anything cuz maybe ill ruin everything later..learn on how to trust ur heart.

i love you SARAH.

pak samad daughter

2008-07-02T21:30:00.000-07:00

Cheryl Samad's youth belies a wealth of experience, stretching all the way back to her appearance in a TV commercial for Magnolia ice-cream at the tender age of four. An accomplished presenter, Cheryl cut her teeth as a VJ on music programs MTV No Limits and MTV Pulse, before moving on to acting, securing lead roles on dramas like Astana Idaman and Table for Two.

Table for Two was my fav series.her acting made me feel like falling in love with her everysingle time.. i used to wish that one day i can be her bf or what so ever..haha..she was my first malaysian celebrity crushed..

i guess i still do love her acting until now..

ps: ms. gf, u still my number one darling.

2008-06-29T19:27:00.000-07:00

RA D IOHE_AD

first of all, what a superb performanced by RADIOHEAD. it was like a dream come true to see thom yorke leading RADIOHEAD infront of me. it worth every penny. every single penny. at last i spent my hardwork job salary with satisfaction. i satisfied. and satisfactory to me...

luckily i only spent 25quid for the concert.

15 step for satisfactory..

1.stay in UK
2.work hard( to earn money)
3.live near to the concert ground
4.checked the concert tix prices on internet
5.always be patient
6.have a good friend to work things out..( thanks jal)
7.wake up early in the morning
8. go to stockport.
9. have a friend name ferus..to bring us to stockport
10. collect ticket
11. drive back to manchester
12. haf your lunch before concert starts
13. find a space in the crowd
14.make friends with random peoples.
15. open wide ur eyes, listen to the beat, and free ur mind..

2008-06-28T04:34:00.000-07:00

B.A.R.A.I

boring

2008-06-24T02:38:00.000-07:00

8,967 words in one and a half days. at last business proposal for ...G completed by me..

abstract DONE!
objectives..DONE!
mission....DONE!
idea and concepts...DONE!

marketing strategy..DONE!
SWOT ANALYSIS....done!!
marketing mix...DONE!!

politics issue..DONE!!
management..DONE!!
flyers..DONE!!
website..DONE!!
brouchers..DONE!!

pricing..DONE!!
product development...DONE!!

FINANCIAL PLANING...done!!!

if im a consultant who work in an established company, im sure they will pay me at least 5k POUND sterling for consultant fees. but at the moment they only going to pay me on hours basic, where i only can get 5pound per hour for the report..alhamdulillah.

so basically im too tired to think about it, i have a meeting this evening at 6pm and its already 11 am. hmm...24hours awake and it is time for me to rest..see ya later ANDY!!

MBus GLOBAL BUSINESS ANALYSIS..

smoking access

2008-06-23T08:37:00.000-07:00

money is like ciggy.burn up fast, leave ashes and buds in the ashtray. no money no glory..when can i enjoy my life with all the money that i earned from all of the rubbish hard work job ?

life as a city boys

2008-06-17T22:05:00.000-07:00

was born in kuala lumpur. the city that never sleep. how i miss KUALA LUMPUR. whenever i think about the foods, the peoples, the traffic jams, the buses, there s no place like KUALA LUMPUR. there are so many good things and memories in KUALA LUMPUR. 24 years i lived in KUALA LUMPUR. make me a wise man. for me to livin in manchester is far way easy compare living in KUALA LUMPUR. once u can survive to live in KUALA LUMPUR definately u can survive anywhere in the world. i love my city.even st.john institution located in the centre of KUALA LUMPUR. 11 sweet memories years.st john institution and convent jalan bukit nanas, hutan simpanan bukit nanas and KUALA LUMPUR TOWER. all in one. gathered in one place. nothing that i can asked for more. its like 20 minutes walk to KLCC, SG.WANG, and currently PAVILLION.

during school days, LIFE AS A SJICB was the pin point for me to be like the way i am now. performed infront thousands of people during band competition, merdeka parade, they cheering for you and enjoying your performance could give me a goosebumps whenever i had a tot about it. such a wonderfull memories. i love my band mates, i love my school buddies, i love those babes in cbn who helped us the boys from SJI to be a man like the way we are now. cheer, jeers are normal to us. thats why we are still together like brothers and sisters.

it supposed to be 1999 marching band competition.me and my brother were part of SJICB

a few things about st john institution :

One of the school that still stands tall in the city St John's Institution, located on Bukit Nanas and surrounded by Kuala Lumpur's skyscrapers. St John's celebrating its centenial annivesary in 2004 ( 1904-2004)

The school is famous for its main block building - a red-brick building with Grecian-Spanish influences - which has been classified as a heritage building. It is the most elaborate school building in the city.

St John's was started when the federal capital's Catholic mission's efforts to set up a school for catholic boys came to fruition. Prior to that, Catholic boys attended either the Bukit Nanas Convent or the Victoria Institution (a rival school to St John's till this day), which was set up in 1893. Older boys attended the Victoria Institution, a Protestant school, much to the distress of Father Renard of the Catholic mission in Kuala Lumpur. He eventually collected enough money to build a school. On Jan 18, 1904, St John's had its first school day. Forty boys attended and the number grew to 100 within six months.

In the last 100 years, thousands of boys and girls - girls were admitted for Form 6 - from all walks of life were schooled at St John's. Royalty, children of prime ministers, politicians, merchants and civil servants went to school together. The school produced students who went on to make names for themselves in various fields. Indeed, the old-boys roll reads like a Who's Who of Malaysia.

career wise in KUALA LUMPUR. as a young product executive in MALAYSIA AIRLINES really helped me to build my confident. meeting with agents, hoteliers, gave me the chance to build my network in the travel business industries in MALAYSIA. i was a hot prospect in the industry, a well known young executive in KUALA LUMPUR. until one day i got a better offer from a chinese company who willing to take me as a head of department for muslim specialise in CHINA market. i groomed my self to be a calibre marketers and i did. almost every travel agent in KLANG VALLEY know my name. 1.5million sales turnover for 6months and i did it on my own.money is nothing for me.

im in manchester got a master degree and im jobless. but currently im doing a business proposal for **** to build up a travel consultant here in UK. the idea and concepts will be different this time. but im sure if everything run smoothly everything will back to my normal days like i used to be before..what a pathetic life innit...up and down..

and this time i have to start it all over again.

we ll see

2008-06-17T21:23:00.000-07:00

im so f***** when thinking bout my future. almost a year im here in UK and still jobless. most of my mates already in another stage of life while me busy with my job hunting. where should i go? how far can i go?

what should i do.sucks in making decision. getting older day by day.ooo god show me some clue please.

should i fly back to malaysia in my comfort zone. start all over again..AND I KNOW..kuala lumpur is my city..the city that will never let me down..

Alleycats - Senyumlah Kuala Lumpur - Alleycats

dutch masters

2008-06-13T13:54:00.000-07:00

france'..who are ya!!after beating down italy last few days now its time for FRANCE to feel gutted. both team need to win on their last match and hoping the romanians loose to the oranje'. possibly the line up for upcoming match wont be the same. no pressure cuz the ORANJE already qualified for the knock out stage.

to italians and french supporters wish u guys all the best..

viva romania!!

the oranje'

2008-06-09T15:53:00.000-07:00

yeah..what a match.!! dutch won their first match againts the azzurris, azzurri who? world cup champion huh?3-0 man. what a game. if i have 40 quid, the orange jersey color definately be mine.

sorry houdin..maybe next time...

GONE

2008-06-09T07:33:00.000-07:00

carphone warehouse called. in a few hours i wont be able to call or receive phone call from anybody i guess. thats what they said..oo goshh

how long can i survive, life without money. why ist so hard for me to get a job?

in her own creation prison

2008-06-08T18:01:00.000-07:00

if i wish i can save you from the room of boredom i will.missing you here

small kids talk like shit. if you are younger than me like 3 years younger or below do mind of your words while talking to elderly people. you might think dat you are super hot ass coolest dooper dude, but come on you aint know nothing compare to us who had experience dealing with some kind of bad ass shit situation. you may speak up what you want to say, but have you realise on how to deal with it and speak it up in a good manner or in a good way. some older people might just ignore you all the way but some might give you a big hand of favor and make you shut your mouth up., or even worst you will end up being alone on your own fooking world.

think before you curse!!

lets the game begin

2008-06-07T23:26:00.000-07:00

EURO 2008

im not so in the mood for euro 2008 because ENGLAND did not qualified for this year tournament. for 3 weeks all the ENGLISH players they will spending their quality time either with their loves one or just seat back and relax enjoying watching euro 2008. as a lesson for ENGLAND football team to be one of the finest, start practicing on how to score a goal and defend it properly..especially the GOALKEEPER..

to be part of euro 2008, im gonna support the ORANGE team, netherland,dutchland and i reckon they gonna win this year tournament..

eurotrip

2008-06-06T17:50:00.000-07:00

enough of feeling sucks..just enjoy ur euro 2008 and your summer here in manchester. my wish list :

pack ur backpack, hip hoping all over europe either alone or with friend and then lets your soul fly high..

lets do it!!!

deco

2008-06-06T09:29:00.000-07:00

since 3rd march 2008 ive been moving around. me got no place to stay. as a nomad person you feel sucks. imagine, you have 2 full loaded luggages to carry all over manchester finding a place to stay. used to stay at me aunt's place but she said im not welcome after a month staying with her. what a headache. she promised me mum.. she said i can stayed with her and i dont haf to worry for accomodation. but somehow shit happens.

thats what friends are for.
luckily i have a bunch of good friends.. overstayed at their place ...end up, im one of their housemate. and now i can take out all of my clothes and hang it on. no more clothes in suitcase luggage or what so ever. now i haf a room tho i haf to share with one of me buddy but its not a probleml, at least i could save some money for the rent, bills, expenses and etc. .. you guys are really my brothers...love u man.

89 ayres

is a local station for everyone. who ever need a place to stay they never say NO. everyone are welcome to stay like what they did to me. no matter what problem they( 89 lads ) are facing still they never stop laughing and welcoming everyone to their house. mess...

cuz theres a lot of people coming in and coming out, the house interior..messy all the time, but still they live happily together.

in the picture from left : rAa , jarl, madude and kazato

so as a new comer, a new tennant, new housemate i promised to me self to keep this house clean all the time. i love my new crib..

back in my dream dream world

2008-06-06T06:46:00.000-07:00

it took me 4 days to arrive back home after a several intermission. friday the holy day..lets pray for the unforgiven and the unexpected..

happy birthday to me mum.. MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU MUMMY!!

do you haf a tenner mate?

2008-06-02T19:01:00.000-07:00

DO YOU have a tenner mate? why did you ask me for a tenner bud?

a tenner( 10 pound ) you could get a bag of green herbs. thats how the local people who sell a small packet of weed in UK. in manchester obviously the one who made a of easy money,they sell those thing to get what they want easily. how do you describe a person who sell weed? not being sceptical but normally those peep who wearing hoody all the time, paki boy, or maybe black local who are the guys sell those things. but you cant judge them by their style. if you a stoner or used to be in the society, you know who are the dealers, sellers and buyer.

so

just because i wore my black hoodie,trainers and walked down the ally alone while listening to me music, you thought me a supplier? how harsh or should i took it as a compliment. what a statement?

get lost and be a stoner on your own.

edited..

by the way foo fighters was superb, a fiver t shirt look so cool, super cool, went there alone tryin my luck if i could get in and yes how lucky am i, a man offered me to accompany him cuz his son cant come so i was there..around 4am arrived at home sitting all alone in my new lounge busy up my self and thinking of what next...

7 am

2008-06-01T22:53:00.000-07:00

its 7 am in the morning, still i cant sleep.england won yesterday,but still lack of finishing tho 3-0 the scoreline.

redeco house still 60% left, might movin on to the second phase after i wake up if i could sleep.

i would love to sleep for the rest of the day, someone wake me up when sept start. im not so sure what am i feeling right now. its been so hard for me to sleep. was't because im waiting for someone or i just wanted to kill time.

whats next for me? how long can i stand? hope dangles on the string..

135

2008-05-31T12:11:00.000-07:00

starting from 1st june till september 2008 bus number 135will loosing one loyal passenger. during that 3 months time, whenever i see 135 it will remind me of her. tonight will be my last ride on 135 service till she s back in town. oo gosh, why ist hard for me to let her go and say goodbye. why i can t be calm like the way i am before. why am i being so sensitive. and why cant i be relax and cool like i used to be.

oo gosh im lost...

tumbling

2008-05-29T21:10:00.000-07:00

yesterday i saw the sun,
today i might see the rain,
because of me words im tumbling down into the river and the pain she felt feels through my veins. tho theres a fires burning in her still i can see beauty in her face.
i put you high in my life, admitting me fault is the hardest part in my life, she deserves to be sad, i deserve to be punished.

its hard to be perfect, but we learn from mistake.

that s why we still together happily
in the blue blue sky

thanks dear
life wouldnt be the same without you
and ill cry a river if you want too.
shows how meaning full..your love
to me

live in old trafford

2008-05-28T18:06:00.000-07:00

born in america, a song writer, guitarist and a singer.

he was born to run

and im in tunnel of love

every day is V DAY.

2008-05-26T16:24:00.000-07:00

a mug of coffee and a packet of crips.

daaa, another day gone. she is sleeping on her bed maybe dreaming of me, dreaming the day when we were together. it was fun when you were by my side. to accompanied me whenever i need some one to be with, a person that share all the passion with, the person that made me smile, the person that wipe out me tears when i cry. now i realise the defination of patience. thanks to GOD. i think i met the right women of me life...so far.

it might to early for me to say,but the chemistry between us...are so unbelievable.

i hope the feeling will continue as long it would be and it will be grow fonder day by day. she might be young, she might be fragile, she might be naive but for me the way she treat me and the way she brought her self in my life comfortably really made me feel so lucky.

so what next?

ill blow my trumpet onto the air whenever i haf 5 k pound sterling and the day will come. lets pray for it and hopefully the end will be like what i wanted too..

I LOVE U SO MUCH MISS siti s***h amran..
from under the sea i see the pressure..

redemption

2008-05-25T05:47:00.000-07:00

emancipate yourselves from mental slavery
none but ourselves can free our mind

if u do ask me?

2008-05-21T19:48:00.001-07:00

bloody hell!! i couldnt believe it.. tho our motto this year is believe 2008. what can i say more,even my girlfriend stood up by me side and hugged me.slowly she whispered to me ears, tonight is the night that you will never forget. your team won the champions league and im by yourside. make sure you tell our children in future that we were there in the city, in the MEN arena, where all the UNITED true red army UNITED together.

it made me think for a sec and quickly i answered to her..hunny definately you gonna be my wife sooner or later, and you already part of it. i love you like i do love for united. ...sounds a bit weird, i love u more hunny, but for sure u could understand me anyway, how passionate me to UNITED.

speechless blogging later...

sugar coated buttered up life

2008-05-20T03:12:00.000-07:00

run you silly boy

yesterday wasnt my day, today might be slightly different, tomorrow i might be dead. clock ticking away and every single sec past away just like that KABOM! anything change still the same. sitting alone in this tiny small room what so called a living room cum kitchen. spent 24hours in it however thankful to me mates for allowing me to stay for a short period at least and maybe the coming months im so gonna be one of them as well. its quit bright outside but the weather kind a chill me down and slowly i covered me self with my blue sleeping bag just to keep me down...

shit

i need to get out of my self, at least get out from the cage. its been a while i never spend my good ample time alone. love to be all alone at least i could figure out wht to do tomorrow or even better the day after tomorrow. the reds gonna play the blue tomorrow and hopefully the magic of the young portugese and the never say die argentinian and korean could lift up the team into glory. i am here.. to support the team that i support since i ve been introduced to the english football. proudly saying im not a fooking glory hunter like what people used to say to me, i am pure, i am fanatic, i am lunatic, i am truly footy lover that only adore the red the only team in the world. the determination of the team, the players including all the staff ( i could say im part of it consider my self cuz i work for them) to make changes and start to make the different really got into and not forgetting their historics part. whenever we achieved what we aim for, the feeling is so irresistable.. i could say its much more better than sex. its like an orgasm tho im still a virgin,where i guess so..

alot of bla bla bla here and there, you guys know which team do i mentioned all about.

yet, i tasted the bitter of life and i had enuff of it and when can i taste the sweetness of licorice...

life is so pathetic...how could i wish if one day a royalmail man knock up the door and sent me an invitation letter from any MN FOOKING C company wanted me join and work for them..

sorted

life as a talib boys

2008-05-19T16:11:00.000-07:00

woke up at 6 am, just to make sure i can be the first one to enter the bathroom so that i could arrive school before the bell ring. at least 1o min before half 7, i had my brew and my early breakfast..as a dessert two sticks of cig.how i miss those moment.

uni days
life were not the same as above neither below.

worked
sucks and tired. doomed!!!!

life after death
heaven

aint it beautiful. color it your self. i slept for the whole day. wasted!! and fucked it. what to do for tomorrow..tomorrow is just another day. snoring and whispering to me self while sleeping. didnt recall what did she said to me ...

people come people go..

2008-05-18T19:34:00.000-07:00

life is like a packet of sugar, a bottle of mustard, a bottle of pepper, a bottle of ketchup and a bottle of vinegar. its so obvious that chips, fries or steak needed. if we want to taste the real meaning of life a bucket of bad, good , worst experience needed. life is like a roller coaster like what she used to say to me. but live the life to the max so that we can be more mature to face it in the future.

politic is the last place for you to be get into if you want a normal decent life. it will complicated your life tho u might be seen super happy rich person driving a Cadillac in Sunday morning with an open roof top.but for real they just wont stop begging to god for a real happiness and so it is.

im 26 and still searching for the real meaning of life. don't look back keep on sailing...

searching the meaning of life......

transporting my self into the highway, searching the fastest and shortest way to my destination tho its still blurry...

fuck it

2008-05-18T17:59:00.000-07:00

im not good in writing when i want to express my feeling. actually i got nothing to write about. life in UK remain the same. my current status still a jobless. i ve been to 30 like interviews so far still no success. what is masters degree to you if u aint got a job. i dunno what to do..my good mate comin end of this month. so it might help me to keep on stayin here in manchester..need more extra money. so far so good..she might be leavin in 12 days...we ll see how long can i stay here without her by my side...

leavin on a jet plane

2008-05-18T17:58:00.001-07:00

im fuck..so fuck it!!!

censored

2008-04-06T11:42:00.000-07:00

think twice