i love august. august is the month of love. the first movie we watched together august rush. malaysia independence day end of august. middle august shes here. so i love august.

onwards from august, bahasa malaysia will be the first language for me new post.

aku benci penjajah...

august rush

here comes the sun..lalala...

chicks galore..you can see chicks all over city today especially Piccadilly. everyone with their mini skirts, tubes even bikinis.

i think i need a rest or a vacation. while waiting for her, let me sleep as long as i could and please do wake me up when middle sept comes not sept..

ok august rush..how bout Aberdeen or portugal for a short trip..

peace

might carried up away. the sun rise from the tip corner of my window. my national flag waving high in the room. independence day just around the corner. but we still been corrupted by the naughty scumbag politicians. my country startin to collapse slowy day by day thats for sure. person A telling bad things bout person B, person B had an affair with person D while person C laughing at A, B and D. so now im not so sure about the definition of independent.

one of the reason why sometimes i feel like buyin a shot gun, a massive bomb that could explode the whole Parliament and a gun with unlimited bullets, so its gonna be easy for me to kill those bastards that ruin my country for the sake of their own fooking belly.

im not a rebel scum, im just a normal guy that would love to change the whole things back to what we used to be. why cant ABC and D live happily ever after. .it consists of four alphabets..if u sum up all together

A+B+C+D = its actually equivalent to LOVE..so be it..

dumb ass

PONEK

at last i have the chance to rest after two weeks of hard work. 3 days off, and i might travel down south to london on monday. its been a while i havent meet my relatives there. anyhow it depends on my mood.

tomorrow lunch with NING team. brainstorming on what should we do on promoting our restaurant to the crowds. we made such a good job. target been achieved. bosses were happy. total sales for two weeks GBP 13000. me myself collect GBP 340 tips for the past two weeks. how i wish i can get all the tips, but because we work as a team we have to share with all the staff. its ok..sharing is caring tho.

football calling. friendly match with BRAZIL team tomorrow. its gonna be the malaysianS vs PROHIBITION bar tender.( the brazillians). hope i can perform tomorrow. its been a while i havent play and kick a ball.

as for NING im starting to love me jobs, the owners start to put trust on me and im so happy for that. i will put all my afford to do the best for you bosses. im so gonna make sure that NING gonna be one of the well known restaurant for south east asian cuisine in manchester.

and to you my love, how bz i am i never stop missing u. you are the one that made me stronger day by day. your support and your courage. i heart you my dear. and to be honest i just cant wait for you. im counting days by days and hoping one day when i wake up from my dream u r in front of me and smiling towards me and telling me im back sayang...

pressure of happiness

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azizah.a@hotmail.com: bye sayang I miss you and mak rindu anak mak sorang ni
azizah.a@hotmail.com: now ada adik je
me: me too
azizah.a@hotmail.com: lastly kalau ada problem do call mak ok
azizah.a@hotmail.com: ta da duit pun beri tahu just email or msn
me : naa its ok
me: just keep ur money k
me: jgn membazir sangat
azizah.a@hotmail.com: ok
me: insyallah ader rezeki skit apis hantar duit k
me: assalamualaikum
azizah.a@hotmail.com: nak balik beri tahu
me: daaa peluk cium apis kat mak..
me: i will
azizah.a@hotmail.com: bye dear and adik selau kata abang ta nakbeli adik jersey ke
me: insyallah
azizah.a@hotmail.com: nanti mak beri tahu mesti dia suka
azizah.a@hotmail.com: kenapa abang ta kirim sama Sarah
azizah.a@hotmail.com: dia adik abang sorang je
me: sebab masa tu apis cuma ader 20 poound jer utk hidup
me: and apis takder duit masa tu mak
me: and still berhutang ngan org
me: kalo ader duit apis dah beli dah mak..
azizah.a@hotmail.com: ta palah dia faham dia pun risau abangnya dia kata ta da duit abang balik lah
me: ok la mak ...apis tido ah dulu
me: kim salam apak and adik
azizah.a@hotmail.com: ok bye dear

my mum chatted with me this morning..as usuall she kind a worried bout me. but the main reason was just wanna let me know, when can i start paying my debt. she keep on mentioning bout my dad who doesnt have work anymore.retired old man , and he already spent a huge amount of his saving accounts for me and for my studies...

mortgaged our house and get some extra money from the bank...and now they hoping that with my masters degree i could get a better job with big salary...but im jobless...how am i going to pay their debt.

now im kind a worried....

im so gonna postponed my things first.its time for me to sacrifice my self. still a long long way to go..dun worry ill sort all the things out..

deep inside me, i miss my mum and my dad...i had a bad bad dream lately..hopefully nothing gonna happened to both of them..ya allah kau selamat kan lah ibu bapa ku..

yang benar..anak yang bingung.

not living in denial

there is a certain way men should stare to a women he loves . like a boy on his birthday. treat her as she was the gift.that he waited so long to open and he cant wait to see what inside.

i have no doubt of waiting. waiting for her to be mine. it might take two, three years or maybe longer than that. sooner or later she will be mine. ill be the king of her heart forever. she made me feel like the way i wanted too. ,

a men like me is so sensitive. maybe the error of gender went wrong somewhere or maybe i haf a heart of women.in other view maybe im kind a wild party animal like a lion tho,still she managed to tame me like a kitten.

should i give reason why do i love her so much?

distance might separate us at the moment. how i miss all the thing about her while she were by myside. but my heart is with you that is why i still can feel ur breath. i still can hear your voice whispering on both ears. telling me that im your precious.

a girl like sarah doesnt come everyday in your life. thank GOD and how lucky i am. dont say anything cuz maybe ill ruin everything later..learn on how to trust ur heart.

i love you SARAH.

pak samad daughter

Cheryl Samad's youth belies a wealth of experience, stretching all the way back to her appearance in a TV commercial for Magnolia ice-cream at the tender age of four. An accomplished presenter, Cheryl cut her teeth as a VJ on music programs MTV No Limits and MTV Pulse, before moving on to acting, securing lead roles on dramas like Astana Idaman and Table for Two.

Table for Two was my fav series.her acting made me feel like falling in love with her everysingle time.. i used to wish that one day i can be her bf or what so ever..haha..she was my first malaysian celebrity crushed..

i guess i still do love her acting until now..

ps: ms. gf, u still my number one darling.