pressure of happiness

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azizah.a@hotmail.com: bye sayang I miss you and mak rindu anak mak sorang ni
azizah.a@hotmail.com: now ada adik je
me: me too
azizah.a@hotmail.com: lastly kalau ada problem do call mak ok
azizah.a@hotmail.com: ta da duit pun beri tahu just email or msn
me : naa its ok
me: just keep ur money k
me: jgn membazir sangat
azizah.a@hotmail.com: ok
me: insyallah ader rezeki skit apis hantar duit k
me: assalamualaikum
azizah.a@hotmail.com: nak balik beri tahu
me: daaa peluk cium apis kat mak..
me: i will
azizah.a@hotmail.com: bye dear and adik selau kata abang ta nakbeli adik jersey ke
me: insyallah
azizah.a@hotmail.com: nanti mak beri tahu mesti dia suka
azizah.a@hotmail.com: kenapa abang ta kirim sama Sarah
azizah.a@hotmail.com: dia adik abang sorang je
me: sebab masa tu apis cuma ader 20 poound jer utk hidup
me: and apis takder duit masa tu mak
me: and still berhutang ngan org
me: kalo ader duit apis dah beli dah mak..
azizah.a@hotmail.com: ta palah dia faham dia pun risau abangnya dia kata ta da duit abang balik lah
me: ok la mak ...apis tido ah dulu
me: kim salam apak and adik
azizah.a@hotmail.com: ok bye dear

my mum chatted with me this morning..as usuall she kind a worried bout me. but the main reason was just wanna let me know, when can i start paying my debt. she keep on mentioning bout my dad who doesnt have work anymore.retired old man , and he already spent a huge amount of his saving accounts for me and for my studies...

mortgaged our house and get some extra money from the bank...and now they hoping that with my masters degree i could get a better job with big salary...but im jobless...how am i going to pay their debt.

now im kind a worried....

im so gonna postponed my things first.its time for me to sacrifice my self. still a long long way to go..dun worry ill sort all the things out..

deep inside me, i miss my mum and my dad...i had a bad bad dream lately..hopefully nothing gonna happened to both of them..ya allah kau selamat kan lah ibu bapa ku..

yang benar..anak yang bingung.